What started as a one off incidence has marred my life for all the years that i have started to dream about the better days that will lie ahead for me ,perhaps they will never materialize unless i start working for it .., I always tried to break the conventional mold surrounding me , never wanted to do what my peers have done , failed most of the times , perhaps each time ,even after reaching the target .some sort of extraordinary circumstances have denied me the moment where i could have basked in the glory ...but none of the others are responsible for it , it's me who is responsible for my happenings , i do take full responsibility for it.
I dreamt of being something in life (now i cannot even define this word "something")...as perplexed i am today , where there seems no light , in the open world leave aside the end of the tunnel ....i did kept running after things in life which i never achieved ...but then , what i was doing never gave me the challenge to put in all my efforts .I would not like to cram up things and then vomit them in exams ..always wanted to test my abilities to the fullest extent ...how far can i reach ...though all these resulted in failures at every stage of my life ,but i always tried to rise from them .., prove my detractors wrong even my parents were part of it ..in all these years i have realised that it's best to walk alone in life ..because no one cares where the damn you are in life ....there are other better things in life for them .I am happy that at least i played my game , never shied away from the obstacles that have marred me .
We all like to live in the safe harbor ,but then a ship never rests permanently in it ,because it is meant to sail ,bring in the revenues ,no one admires it standing still in the water ,all the beautiful canvases drawn show it sailing against the backdrop of the pale blue water. If one is happy with a routine life, the same conversations, the same kind of routine work then I have no judgments on that kind of life, all the best to you, but I haven’t met someone who’s happy living that kind of life. If you keep doing what you have been doing all your life you will keep getting what you have been getting all your life. Yet most people live their life that way, stuck in the cocoon of comfort ness and complacency. True joy only comes when you put your blood and sweat in the game and take chances, you will start to experience more failure, but the chances of success also rise, as the saying goes “Insanity is doing the same things but expecting different results”.The only failure is the failure to try, to dream and dare .The real risk is in living the risk less life, because down the life you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do rather than the things you did.
Perhaps the next 2-3 months are the most important for my life .. it's like make or break ..if i don't succeed then may be i will be lost somewhere ...never to rise again .. i shall try to fulfill my potential ,hope this time i am true to myself.
